Outside Looking In

7:49pm: The Girl that Just Can't Quit

If everyone remembers me I will be amazed!  Seriously though, it's been a while since I've been on.  I guess I just wanted to take a break from the whole journal thing.  I've never really kept a journal in my entire life, so this behavior isn't all that surprising.  Also I don't write b/c I really don't have anything to announce or say.  I know, I'm still the quiet one.  I like to think of it as being mysterious but I know I'm just BSing myself.

So aside from school nothing is really new with me, like at all.  You may think I am kidding but I'm not.  The only thing new with me is that I am way more stressed out with school than I have ever been.  I have had a couple of moments when I reevaluate my decision in being a Biology major.  But when I think about I can't really do anything else.  My aunt has given me a couple of ideas, but I don't know if I'm ready to quit on the idea of becoming a vet.  Only time will tell I guess.

Well, I gotta get to working on my Cell/Molecular Biology work.  BYE!!!

10:14pm: Bloody Pirates!!
So I got to see the new Pirates of the Caribbean movie.  It was a lot of fun, plenty of action and lots of good jokes.  Plus, a really good ending, now I will have to watch the third movie that is being made.  It was one of the few Disney movies sequels that is just as good as the first movie.

After the movie my family and I went to lunch at Red Lobster.  It was soo good.  Later on got interesting, on the way to the shopping area where Tilly's is at my brother informed us that he has been hustling and making some "serious" money by doing it.  I thought it was stupid and I told him so.  One of these days he's gonna get jumped by some guys that will take his hustling personal.  But he only sees money.  I'm beginning to wonder if maybe all those gangster video games are getting to him, but then again there isn't any real hustling shown in them.  ::sighs:: we are brother and sister yet me and him are totally different in certain aspects of our personality.

For the first time I had something from Jamba Juice, it was yummy and I really liked it.  Now I don't have to get a surprised look from people who find out that I have never gotten anything from Jamba Juice.  Yea, I know, some people actually think it matters whether or not a person has been to Jamba Juice.  what is this world coming to??  when someone finds out, let me know. haha.

k, back to my movie, it's my favorite part.

4:04pm: Zip-a-dee-doo-da
I need a haircut.

Also, anyone want to see The Devil Wears Prada??

4:15pm: Wasting the summer away...

Owee! My sunburn hurts still.  Hopefully it will turn brown by tomorrow.  That would be really nice, if I was lucky.  But i'm not so i don't expect any relief anytime soon.  At least I got to hang out in a pool.  I haven't been in a pool in ages.

Well in the time I have been back home I have...

• Watched between 30-40 movies on tv and dvd
• hung out with my brother and ended up with a bruised nose while we were playing (still kinda hurts too)
• applied for a couple of jobs
• started to exercise (a little)
• went to my cousin's high school graduation (it was very fun to see one instead of being in one)

Now I am getting bored.  I suppose I lack imagination, but I don't know what to do with myself.  I will figure out somethng, hopefully.

K i'm hungry so I will get something to eat. laters!

11:53pm: Let's go fly a kite! Up to the highest height!
I love Mary Poppins!  Anyone who doesn't at least like this movie needs to get in some serious touch with their inner child.  Of course, this is easily said by the person who has their inner child as their constant companion, haha.  Yea I know I'm crazy.  But I just love Disney movies, can't help it.

I got to have actual pizza after so long of having the pizza that my cafeteria made.  It was soooo good.

I finished watching some movies with my mom and I finally got to see Rumor Has It... and I thought it was really funny.  It kinda made me feel like my family wasn't as crazy as all that.  My family, ::sighs::, sometimes I wonder if we are on a tv show or something with the amount of craziness that has been happening lately.

Tonight I finally get to sleep with my window open and not worry about giant horse flies getting into my room, flying all over the place.  A big switch from the screenless windows I had at college that would let every kind of crawling and flying insect into my room.  It was so gross.  It creeps me out just thinking about it.

So basically another chill day in my life yet again, we got some of our windows tinted today so now the sun is not supposed to make the rooms so hot as before.  We'll see if that works.

NITE!!

12:34pm: I need to be productive
So now that I have had a really nice weekend and relaxing couple of days I think it's time that I start looking for a job. The only problem is I have no idea where to start.

I also have to deal with trying to convince my parents that a roadtrip would be ok for me to go on with Adrienne, even though my mom thinks we'll end up abducted and murdered. One day maybe my parents won't be so overprotective. Then again maybe not.

Hmm...I think I should try to read a few books for me this summer, I haven't been able to do that since my winter vacation. I miss reading, it's so much fun.

Why does packing have to be so difficult?? Why can't it be a simple transfer of clothes from one spot to another? Instead I don't think I am going to have enough room and will probably have to take out some clothes in there. Gah! Moving is tough.

10:51am: It's Summer Vacation
I am now home and relaxing in my room. It's nice to have my own room again. I missed it. Now I have to deal with the annoying part of moving. I have to unpack all my stuff. Not going to be an easy task since I don't think that all my stuff is going to fit in the room.

I need to find a job too. I hope I can find something that I like seeing I am home earlier than some of the schools that get let out for summer. I am aiming for Barnes and Noble or Borders, but I know I won't be getting a job there, everyone wants a job there.

Well, I better start unpacking all my entertainment stuff, I want to watch one of my DVDs.

8:13pm: I bet you didn't predict this...
Greatest thing about going to a private Catholic school...

EASTER EGG HUNT FOR 4 DAYS!!!!!!!

I found about 6, but the rest washed away with the monsoon we had for two days. :(

P.S.  I like the new format for the livejournal.  Anyways, back to not writing in this thing for another 2 months.

9:47pm:

well, I am finally writing in my journal.  I don't think I am going to keep it anymore.  I don't really have anything to write about and I don't know how to make my dull life come alive on the screen.  The only thoughts I do have are meant to be in an actual journal that no one else sees but me.  That and I just don't see the point in it anymore. eh, I'll probably change my mind in the next few days.

 

( Careful! I'm slippery when stepped on )

11:58am: This is me bored and waiting for my next class to start

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all... But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you. Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses. Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others. Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

Your Birthdate: December 2

You're so intuitive, it's like you have a sixth, seventh, and eighth sense. You connect with others freely and easily - and you tend to have many best friends. Warm and caring, it's hard for you to close your heart to anyone. Affection is like air for you - you need to give and receive it to survive. Your strength: Your universal compassion Your weakness: Your unpredictable mood swings Your power color: Mauve Your power symbol: Butterfly Your power month: February

Your Birth Month is December

You love life and exude an outgoing, cheerful vibe. Blessed with a great sense of humor, you can laugh at adversity. Your soul reflects: Celebration, success, and wealth Your gemstone: Blue Topaz Your flower: Narcissus Your colors: Indigo, green, and blue-green

Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy. You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts. People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused. But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

Your Life Path Number is 11

Your purpose in life is to inspire others Your amazing energy draws people to you, and you give them great insight in return. You hold a great amount of power over others, without even trying. You have the makings of an inventor, artist, religious leader, or prophet. In love, you are sensitive and passionate. You connect with your partner on a very deep level. You have great abilities, but you are often way too critical of yourself. You don't fit in - and instead of celebrating your differences, you dwell on them. You have high expectations of yourself. But sometimes you set them too high and don't achieve anything.

I know this is a lot but I just have one more to go.

You Are Somewhat Machiavellian

You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead... But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself. You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place. You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!

1:53pm: What did you do for your three day weekend?
This weekend has been crazy. First my computer stopped working and I couldn't go onto the internet for some reason. Now it fixed itself and I still don't know what happened. The past two days have been fun. I got to see Mercedes and hang out with her by watching movies. I love Disney, we got to see Aladdin and Pirates of the Caribbean.

Last night was also pretty entertaining. After I got back from Mercedes' room (she had to go to church), I came back to my quiet dorm room (roommate is in Hawaii). One of the girls I hang out with had come back and I hung out with her and some other girls watching Grey's Anatomy. After that we decided to channel surf and somehow ended up on the OH! Oxygen channel (yes the women's channel). We ended up watching Talk Sex with Sue. You know, the show with the old lady giving advice to younger people about all things sex. Yea, that was really entertaining and funny to watch. After that the theme of sex continued on the Oxygen channel with Bliss: Erotic Stories. But we didn't watch those since one of the girls got tired and wanted to sleep.

Now I need to do some laundry, I need some jeans to wear.

7:07pm: Tentative, but excited
I think I may have found my group. This whole entire time in college I have been kind of lost in the way of social stuff. I didn't really have a group that I could hang out with and that I felt comfortable with. I had Mercedes, but I knew that I couldn't just rely on her. I had my roommate, but then it soon became clear that she didn't want to spend a lot of time with me and she didn't really want to have the same group of friends as me. So I was left with no one really, so I would always hang out in my room and go to dinner by myself. But by some chance I decided to talk to someone that I kinda knew because her door was open. Now I have a group that is nice to me and doesn't leave me out of things. I feel like I am part of something and it is beautiful. I feel like the rest of this year won't be a complete bummer.

Another new development that is happening in my spring semester is that my roommate is moving into the room across the hall. The reason is to long and complex to explain, but to clarify it is not because of me. I don't really do not irritate her anymore than the times she has hurt my feelings. So I will be getting a new roommate next semester and I hope everything ends up ok. I will miss my roommate despite the fact that she is not the most reliable friend. She says that we can still hang out sometimes, but the truth is I don't think our friendship was that strong where hanging out with each other is needed. She will live her life and I will live mine. We are going to have some of the same classes next semester so we will still see each other. But I just don't feel comfortable with the two girls she hangs out with.

Anyways, my roommate's boyfriend is here visiting and last night was the most awkward night ever. I just couldn't get past the thought that there was a guy spending the night in my roommate's bed with her. So yea, tomorrow morning he is leaving so I won't have to deal with the awkwardness much longer.

9:43am: The Vacation is Over!
Well I have now been back at school for a whole day and nothing has really changed. The one sad change is that a staff member in the cafeteria died (he was really nice and was always smiling), but other than that the school has stayed the same.

The bed is still the same, the stupid blinds are still the same, and the people are pretty much the same. I am now sitting in my room and I'm not really sure if I start work today. I left my door open just in case. Surprisingly, I remember what I usually have to say to the tour groups. Now I have about 2 hours until my first class starts. I am really hoping that the teacher is cool and nice, I want to do well in this class.

Yesterday was pretty interesting. It involved waiting for about half an hour for our luggage (mercedes flew with me), then Mercedes decided to not tell my uncle that she lives on the opposite side of the campus from me. From here Mercedes helped me with my luggage into my room, then I went back outside in the rain to help her get to her room on the other side of the campus. Now the campus is not very big to begin with but when you have three bags and its pouring it can feel like a long trek to that residence hall. We got to her room and I stayed there a bit because it was nice and warm. When I got back, my roommate had arrived and was unpacking her stuff. I cleaned my room and put the sheets on my bed. Then, I decided to put my reading pillow/chair on my bed too. It was really dusty and I went out into the hall to beat out some of the dust. Well, my roommate and her mom left five minutes after I went outside. I continued to beat my pillow when I realized something. I had forgotten my key to the room. For the first time, I had been locked out of my room.

So I hung out at another friends room while I waited for Aileen to get back. Three hours later, I was finally able to get back into my room and finish with my unpacking. It was very entertaining to tell my parents about that story because they couldn't understand how I didn't realize I didn't have my key. hehe No wonder my mom gets so many gray hairs.

about six more minutes before I can close my door. YAY!!

3:19pm: Time Goes By
I can't believe this is my last week here. Part of me is excited to go back to school so I can take my Ballroom/Social Dancing class. The other part of me is a little bummed because I didn't really get to do everything that I wanted while I was here. I guess I will get other chances, yet maybe not.

I had a really nice xmas considering that my mom was close to dying, we got our tree the day before xmas eve, and I had to make the cookies for "santa". For our first xmas where most everyone was sick it turned out alright. Even my cookies came out ok, but they took almost an hour for me to make. hehe I really don't like cooking of any sort.

Adrienne proposed that I write a screenplay. I revealed to her that deep down I am a dreamer. She thought I should write something. I shall think about it, but I don't think I could come up with anything good. It sounds like something fun to do though.

gotta go eat now.

8:36pm: My vacation took a bit of a nose-dive today. It wasn't a very good day. My dad is really sick so I have to stay at home and make sure my brother did everything he needs to do to stay alive, like eating food when he's supposed to. It seems both me and my brother have a common flaw in common. We can forget to eat sometimes because we get so absorbed in what we are reading, watching, or playing. So it helps when we get reminded of eating. Yea I know it's bad, but whatev.

Anyways, I also felt really crappy today too as well. I hope I feel better tomorrow.

5:29pm: What I can do when I'm determined...

So I decided to see what my grades would be for Fall Term.  I was especially worried about my calculus class since I had a solid D in it.

Here it is:

Total Earned Credits Total Grade Points Term GPA
4.25 14.40 3.388
 
 
 
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     Course/Section and Title Grade Credits
1 CHEM-007 01 Introductory Chemistry A 1.00
2 MATH-027 01 Calculus I C 1.00
3 ENGL-004 19 Composition A- 1.00
4 SEM-020 04 Greek Thought A- 1.00
5 KINES-006A 01 Archery 
 

That's right, after three straight days of studying, I got a high enough Final Exam grade to get a solid C in the class.  I am so happy I feel like I am about to burst.

11:01pm: Today was good
Today consisted of me and Adrienne going to the mall to look for xmas presents. Once we had lunch, we went to Target. We didn't spend a lot of time there but we did find Adrienne's brother a present. We then went home. When we got to my house, we played Trivial Pursuit: Pop Culture, DVD Game. This one was actually a bit harder than the 90's edition. But even with the harder questions Adrienne still won. She just knows far much more random, useless facts than I do. One day though, I will best her in Trivial Pursuit. Even if this is a pointless dream, I can still hope.

Adrienne also gave me my belated birthday present. I love my new threadless t-shirt. It's "You Sunk My Battleship", because the battleship game is awesome. I am hoping that I can get another shirt from here. I really like them.

Does anyone have any idea where Brokeback Mountain is playing? Somewhere that is somewhat close to the Santa Clarita valley. According to Adrienne this movie will not be shown here because it's too controversial. I want to see that movie badly. So if anyone has any info, pass it along.

12:15pm: Home, home, home
Getting kind of bored here at home, but I love it. It's good to be bored after so much craziness. I hope I end up having a great break here. Hope to see some of my friends while I'm here too.

K gotta go eat something.

11:44pm: Can't focus, but I must

Take the first sentence (or 2) from the first post of each month of 2005. That's your year in review.

January:

i think i enjoy disappearing during vacation, but most likely i'm too lazy to update.

February:

so yea today was kinda embarrassing day. adrienne disclosed some of my personal business to the group of guys that hangs out with us during lunch.

March:

Note to self: don't always be honest with ppl, it will get you into trouble.

April:

So me and adrienne are going to be doing a physics project in whinch we analyze the physics of sailing. fun fun stuff.

May:

APs ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

June:

yesterday i went with The Adrienne to Northridge Mall, Wal-Mart, and Valencia Mall. on the way back to santa clarita, adrienne took the street way and we passed these two places named BEE CANYON ESTATES and BEE CANYON PARK.

July:

Just came back from somme fun in the sun and it was wonderful.

August:

I'm getting so nervous/excited after reading all those entries talking about college.

September:

College has really been keeping me busy. So yea i now have and official card that says i am 18.

October:

We finally got radio and now we are able to listen to music not on our computers already.

November:

Gah!!!! I need mental stimulation!!

December:

I can't believe I have done this twice in a row. Not to mention two days in a row.

12:05am: Trying to wake up a bit
So I was trying to find out what decade I'm from, here's what I came up with:

You're the 50's. Playful, shy, and imaginative,
people always look to you for new ideas. You
stick to your customs, but can still be
original and bright. People are drawn to you
because of your energy.


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You are the 1940s!


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Woohoo! You're a 60s child. Peace, love, happiness,
make love not war kind of person- that's you.
You're most likely laid-back, but when you get
into something, you can get pretty heated up.
But you're a pretty cool person. Peace, man.


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The Thirties.


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You are the the 40's. You love to wear vintage
hats, fishnet stockings, or a nice pinstripe
suit. You're a fan of classic jazz icons like
Benny Goodman and Ella Fitzgerald. And you
support your country! Go you!


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1940s


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So for the most part I was in the 1940s but there were times when I could have been from a few other decades. I'm just all over the place really.

2:40pm: One down, three more to go
Well, I just went to my last seminar class. I turned in my final paper and have one more final paper to fix. Now I have a calc exam to continue studying for as well as a chem final, but im not too worried about that. I just hope I will get a C on my math exam. That will raise my grade to where I want it to be. Everyone cross their fingers for me.

Hopefully, I will be studied enought that I can take a break later on and watch a movie with some of the girls in my hall. Most of them are leaving soon so I kinda want to say bye to them.

Well I gotta go take a shower and then back to studying again.

5:21pm: Had Some Fun, Now To Get To Work

So my birthday was actually better than I expected.  A lot of people actually said "Happy Birthday" to me either through the internet or they actually gave me a card.  My roommate, Mercedes, and Sophie(mercedes' roommate) decorated my room while I was in class.  So when I got back there were RED streamers and little bows on my side of the room.  It was quite a surprise.  Also, Mercedes and Sophie made this huge birthday poster which contained all of our inside jokes.  Then I was actually able to do something with some of my friends at night.  We went to the movies and saw Pride and Prejudice.  That was a VERY good movie.  It has two of the most romantic scenes of this year.  I loved it.

Then yesterday I went out with my uncle and my aunt to a little japanese restaurant.  I tried cooked sushi for the first time and it was so good.  After that, I went to the basketball game.

SMC - 69

Rutgers - 75

We lost. :( Oh well, you win some, you lose some.  Maybe next time we'll win.  It was a pretty intense game though.  Afterwards, I went to In-N-Out with my roommate and three other people in my hall.  It was really good.

Today, I have been studying all day for my calc final.  Then I have to work on my Seminar paper.  Then back to calc.

2:00am: Guess what? I'm still awake!!
I can't believe I have done this twice in a row. Not to mention two days in a row. At least I'll be able to take a really long nap when I get back from english and finish working. Since it's raining right now, my archery class is most likely going to be canceled. So I will definitely be taking advantage of that.

So now I am writing my 5 page "documented" essay. Luckily it's only a rough draft so I don't mind if it ends up being incredibly horrible. Just gives me more to work on over the next week. Seeing how it's not due till Thursday of next week. This weekend i will be focusing on my Calc final o' doom.

I just realized that it is Dec 1. Guess what that means? I'm serious, you have to guess. Well, most of you should know anyways. I am still not very excited though. It still will be another day with having to go to classes and dreading my finals. But i guess I am getting ahead of myself, who knows what will happen.

P.S. I have decided that my fav Death Cab song is "Soul Meets Body" and living on only 3 hours of sleep is now way to live, you end up wasting your life away trying to catch up to sleep that you never will get back

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5:13pm: Too Much Writing, Brain Will Soon Explode
I have so much writing to do it's not even funny. ok well it is slightly because some of it I saved until the last minute, so yea. But I have had the worst case of writer's block ever this week. I don't feel confident about any of my writings at all.

Anyways, today I spent about 30-45 minutes looking for images of my fav old movies. I think I downloaded about 15. Now one of them is being used as the picture on my desktop. I love it sooo much. I need to buy the movie "Holiday" with Cary Grant and Katharine Hepburn. It is probably one of my most favorite movies from this genre. Maybe when I come back home I can go to Best Buy to see if they have it.

Well back to research and being creative.

12:07pm: Everything Back to Normal
Getting used to the school way of life again. Having to write papers and study for calc finals. More reading of Aristotle and trying to understand what he is trying to say. Got to get used to not being able to be fully myself, and not let people in anymore. Eh. I have two more weeks until i get to go back home for winter break. Then i get to take a fun class in January. But I am getting ahead of myself here. Right now I have to deal with doing a rough draft for a paper that is due tomorrow and I have no idea what I am writing about. The topic is not really something I can work with and I have like no inspiration for what I could possibly do to make this paper my own.

At least I had a really nice time at home. I was a sad that I wasn't able to see everyone, but I just have to look forward to Winter Break. At the moment I am anticipating my birthday this friday. I probably won't do anything, like always. It will be cool if some of the people over here acknowledged it. At least one card would be nice too. Trust me, this is not self-pity, it is how my situation is over here. It is the result of me not having any real friends here. I could probably try harder but yea. I figure it's just another birthday. It's not like I am turning 21 or something, it's just 19. My last official year as a teenager and then into my twenties. Eww...creepy to think about that actually.

K I shall leave now. I think this entry ended up more dreary than I intended. Bah! Oh well.